None of these things are really tied together, by the way. Well, maybe the insomnia might have something to do with them, but really nothing here is connected.
This past Sunday I found out that I passed Second Degree at Sacred Mists. This was after literally MONTHS of working on my final exam. Everything from difficulties with some of the work for the final and then moving and everything in between just seemed to get in the way. It is a great feeling of accomplishment and I am very happy that I got to this point in my path there but unlike what a lot if people think I should be doing, celebrating, I just want to move on to the next stage! So I am in the process of working on the Third Degree Entrance Assessment and hoping very much that I get accepted into Third Degree. If for some reason I don’t I do plan to keep working away on the other areas that the Mists has to offer and take an Adept class and then try again later. But I’m not really trying to be too focused on the far distant future of this path in the Mists at the moment and focus more on what I can do now.
I haven’t had a mentee in a while which has been a bummer. Mentoring is one of the things that I love doing in the Mists and when I don’t have any mentees it’s a little sad. I also get a little bummed when I have mentees that don’t like to talk to me…lol. Ultimately I know that I am meant to be working in a higher aspect in the Mists. I’ve been doing this for so long and working in this capacity, as a Priestess and teacher, for so long and I know that I can add so much to the Mists in those capacities. My biggest problem right now is letting my other activites, projects and classes get in the way of this Mists. This is one of the thigns that worries me the most about getting into Third Degree; I worry that my sort of absence in the last six months will reflect negatively on me. But I’m trying to stay positive on that and hope for the best.
One of those things that I had going on was working to do free psychic readings on AllExperts.com. I ended up giving that up because it was getting slammed with requests beyond what I could handle and people just expect far too much for free in my opinion. The one thing that I did do was stick around AllExperts to help offer my time to the Wiccan Teens category. It’s so slow and there aren’t a lot of questions there so I figure that for the two questions every few months that I might get that I could handle that. Since I started out in Wicca as a teen and I understand through experience what it can be like to be Wiccan as a teen I felt I could offer a lot in that area. So far I’ve done well and enjoyed helping where I can. However I got a message the other day that really annoyed me so much that I couldn’t even answer it. The problem was it hit one of my biggest pet peeves with teens and the internet; the idea that every email and every message needs to be truncated like a text message. ” This” become “diz”, “the” is “da”, “you’re” turns into “ur”, but this one had some other special ones. See if you can figure out what words these are supposed to be: “nd”, “lukin”, “reli”, “tymz”, “jst”, “any1″, “4eva”…and it just goes on. There were about a hanful of words in English in the email making it just annoying to read. I was actually surprised that I made it to the end because it was long! And it all boiled down to someone wanting to know how to do spells for a quick fix to a problem. If anything, that’s one thing that I DO NOT agree with… giving someone who’s completely unexperienced in magick and who doesn’t seem to really have much of a desire to learn beyond what they need to learn to fix their problem. To me giving people keys to magick without the rest of the foundation is like giving someone keys to a Hummer when they don’t even know how to drive a Toyota! So, yeah…between not really being able to understand the email in the first place and then knowing that I wouldn’t be able to give an answer this person wanted I couldn’t answer it and passed it on the others in the group who might want to try and answer it. I just couldn’t handle it. If you can’t communicate in an intelligent way, I can’t help you. *sigh*
And then the insomnia. For the last maybe two weeks now I have been on an unstoppable and uncorretable nocturnal trend. I can’t sleep at night but I sleep really well during the day! I usually find that by 8am I’m ready for bed and I’m up by about 3-4pm. This just annoys the crap out of my husband but the way I see it I can’t do anything about it other than forcing it to reverse and I don’t want to do that because I know that it will correct itself in it’s own time. I see it as my own odd cycle that I need to be on I guess and I need to just let it flow. I just hate that it happens a few times a year because it can be a big disruption to some times. Thankfully not working a “normal job” and working on my own terms helps.
So I’m hoping to get back to work today on my Third Degree Entrance work and start my rune project after getting some sleep.
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